LESS DEAD

Look dear as I walk away
To make your wish come true
Because promised I had
That you'll never be sad
So I walk away
Like you wanted me to

Just a moment I need
If my words you'd heed
There's more to beauty than eyes can see
If you could feel my heart
We'd not be apart
And perhaps different your wish would be

Look dear as I turn my back
To joyous miseries seeded by me
You loved red, so I bled myself
But I feel less dead than I was
When you and I were still We

KAASH

Kaash
Suraj ko kabhi dhalna na hota
Hawao ko badalna na hota
Is waqt ko guzarna na hota
Kaash
Koi dil kabhi tuta na hota

Kaash
Lehro se takrata nahi
Bas kisiki muskaan ke liye
Kaash
Khudko jalata nahi
Tanha dil ki thand se bachaane ke liye

Kaash
Pochhe hote aansu kabhi
Apne bhi naino se nikalte hue
Kya peeli do boondein ashkon ki
Kaash
Ye zeher piya na hota

Kaash
Khuda ka ghar itna door na hota
Pyar mein dard, itna na hota
Dil pe kabhi kabu bhi hota
Kaash
Ye kaash na hota

SLAY MY HEART

Some real, some fake

Some true, some made
Are words hounding your ears
Some evil, some not
But don't know what's what
Believe, don't trust, until it's clear

Some by you, some by me
Some by the great almighty
Are bonds made to forever last
Let not your fate
Be bewitched by hate
Let not be our distance so vast

Look closely my dear
My heart's all clear
Not a drop of slyness I bear
But the witch you believe
Has been known to conceive
Words to poison bonds of care

I was the one
To whom you could run
Someone with whom you could cry
Promised to be there forever
Loved you, knowing you would never
And you choose to have my heart die

KARMA

In a dark room of thoughts

My heart sits to rot
Some moments some memories burn me alive
There's pain in the air
Thorns prick me everywhere
I am smiling, with no tears left in my eyes

There's a mystical urge to love you
To make you feel like I do
But there's a wall you've drawn that keeps me far
You call me a friend
But you just pretend
You don't know how you've scarred my heart

I got lost in the haze
Thinking we'll be the same always
But a cloak of lies now you wear
You toyed with my heart
Tore it apart
You're not but karma is fair

AAGAAH

Dil ki baat batana nahi
Hothon pe unko lana nahi
Chahe bahe rag rag me aansu
Aankho pe unko sajaana nahi

Nahi hai koi aisa jag mein
De apna diya tumhe shab mein
Waade karne waale to hain
Nibhane ka saahas nahi hai sab mein

Kaid kar rakho dil ko apne
Ye udta panchhi hai sankat mein
Ye kya jaane sholay aur kaante
Dikhta hai khuda ise patthar mein

Ummeed kisise rakhna nahi
Har shaant nadi hai ghatak jharna kahin
Baato pyar, suno sunao kisse iske
Lekin is dariye me padna nahi

यादें

क्यूँ यादें हैं अब भी बाकी
बिखरी हुई पंखुड़ियां जैसे
सूखी हुई, रौंदी हुई
आसुओं के तले
जब साथ नहीं है बाकी

क्यूँ उनके लिए धड़कता है दिल 
जो तोड़ देते हैं इसको
छोड़ कर, मूह मोड़ कर
खरौन्च्के ज़ख्मों को
फिर भी क्यूँ प्यार करता है दिल

कहते हैं
वक़्त भुला देता है सारे ग़म
सूख जाते हैं सारे आंसू
पर उनके दिए आसूं और ग़म हैं ऐसे
के वक़्त और हम साथ रोते हैं 

SOMETIMES

Rain isn't as palpable sometimes

As the tears it washes away
Bringing memories benign
Reminding how love preys

In every drop a moment exists
But you know not what to do
To let go, or to persist
On being someone you know is not you

Sometimes a shiver isn't as cold
As some cold-hearted people in the world
You don't know, until they unfold
That side which makes your heart hurl

There's a warmth in every hug
A warmth that's just a bluff
And all your life your heart you lug
Because sometimes, love isn't enough.

आँखों में झील

रात के अंधियारे में

सन्नाटा जब छाता है
आँखों में सजी झील से
कुछ नीर कम हो जाता है

मूँद कर आंखें जो रोकूँ इसे
आँखों का बाँध टूट जाता है
गंगोत्री अश्कों की प्यार में
ऑंखें नहीं दिल बन जाता है

जो घर था खुशियों का
हर बूँद में वो पल है
जलता है अब आग सा
एक परी का महल है


उस नीर के सूख जाने पे
काश दिल में प्यार भी सूख जाये
आँखों में सजी झील से
कुछ और नीर ना कम हो पाए 

I STILL LOVE YOU

दो बूँदें आसुओं की

साज़िश दिल लगाने की
जो मै कर गया
दो बूँदें आसुओं की
पी कर ही रेह गया

यादों का घर बनाने की
तमन्ना जो कर गया
आसुओं की बाड़ में
घर ही बेह गया

दिल लुटाने की
हिम्मत जो कर गया
बिखरे टुकड़े दिल के
समेट कर रेह गया

तुम्हे सच बताने की
ताकत जो जुटा गया
दिल तुड़वाने की आदत
मैं लगा कर रेह गया

आँखों से आँख मिलाने की
इच्छा जो कर गया
चट्टान से दर्द की
सीमा पे रेह गया

जिंदिगी तुम्हे देने की
आशा मै कर गया
चंद लम्हे ना दे सकी
तनहा ही रेह गया

प्यार को समझने की
जुर्रत जो कर गया
दो बूँदें आसुओं की
पी कर ही रेह गया

MOVING ON

I'll shed the rust
Before I weather
From my heart's crust
You'll be gone forever

Whirlpool of love
Did swirl me well
I had lost my dove
Crushed my shell

My skin soaked tears
But a low hope rose
That I'll kill my fears
And you will be close

But I can't be cacti
And live on thorns
No I won't cry
When you are gone

I did see spring but
Just the silence before a storm
I got my heart cut
Just when love was being born

I burnt during day
I froze in the night
Before figuring out the play
I was defeated by my might

True the scar won't go
But I'll rise from this pit
Blood through my heart will flow
After you're gone from it

I'VE BLED

The rose's gone black

The leaves are all dead

Wish you could be back

Ask the thorns I've bled

The petals are on the ground

Over stepped by my tears

Darkness me surrounds

Dying feels so mere

Blow the rose and shatter

Shatter the petals in air

Let the thorns prick me it doesn't matter

If what you did was so fair

I know we made no promises

There were no vows to keep

And that became my nemesis

I let my trust in too deep

I wish I hadn't a heart

Or at the most one that's dead

Wish you weren't my life's part

Because ask the thorns, I've bled

THE LAST TALK

The sun has finally set

The dusk has finally gone

Things happened that I regret

And my life has finally torn

But I promise I will try

To keep my tears in me

But I can't promise my heart won't die

Every time your memories it sees

I know I have to be strong

But my strength came from you

Now all I have are my melancholy songs

As my world is now without hue

IS THIS MY LOVE'S WORTH

Through a broken window I see

Gloom embracing the earth

A tear rolls down to kiss me

Is this my love's worth

The memories are still fresh

Like a rose after a shower

But the rose inside me is dead

I don't know why you killed the flower

I can take all blows

I can pass through hell

But the pain you caused just grows

And my misery only swells

You left me with no cures

So I'll let my wounds rust

But before leaving all I ask for

Is this my love's worth

THE PROMISES YOU BROKE

WARNING: Following is one my worst poems ever, read at your own risk. Can anybody please explain why one falls short of words when one needs them the most during a heavy heart.

I'll love you forever
Now that's become a joke
I'll be there you'll need me whenever
They're some of the promises you broke

You said we're here forever
Didn't know forever's so short
Wish I was a bit more clever
Coz you mishandled my heart

You always wished that
I write poems for you
So here I am so glad
Exposing the dirty deeds you do

But I don't know why
I look at your picture all day
Even though you made me cry
For your well-being I always pray