Thursday, November 13, 2014

AYE KHUDA

Aye Khuda
Aisi bhi kismat kyu banayi
Ke ro pada tu bhi
Apni kahani jo maine sunayi

Jab bhi gira tujhey yaad kiya
Suni na tune ek meri
Kar mehnat jo chhua aasmaan
Toh kehta hai dua hai teri

Na lunga ab naam tera
Na karunga ab pooja koi
Kar sake to kar bhala mera
Agar sach mein hai khuda koi

Aye khuda
Itna gumaan sahi nahi
Ke meri takdeer toh likhdi tune
Khudki takdeer ka pata nahi

Saturday, September 13, 2014

THE TRUTH

Do not dwell too deep
Discovering the secrets I keep
You may fall in love no more trusting your God
The way this world is run
If not kept an illusion
You'll find answers to questions yet asked not

An awry smile you'll bear
Which with everyone you'll share
You'll see how soulless you were before
For that enchanting feeling
Of your heart healing
Embraces as The Truth is all you implore

Do not stop your mind
Churning worries of future and behind
A spider entangled in its own web wishing to die
For to live a life of free
Close your eyes and see
The peace as you let each thought just pass by

It's in the nature of your thoughts
Seek problems and make you rot
The Truth frees you from slavery of your mind
The more you live in the now
The less to pain you bow
Not a destination,
Enlightenment is the orign you'll find

Monday, August 4, 2014

MOHABBAT-E-HARAAM

Udd se gaye rang phulon se
Jo rango mein tere nigaah sama gayi
Kar leti lihaaz mere bhi mazhab ka
Kar diya shaayrana jo urdu tu sikha gayi

Chal diya mandir ki ore
Jo yaad khuda ki agayi
Rakh liya roza maine yahan
Tu karva chauth wahan mana gayi

Kyun dhundti hai tu asmaan mein khuda
Suna hai wahan bhagwaan hai mera
Kyun jhukti hai tu masjid mein
Jaise mandir mein mai jhuka

Hijaab mein chhupta tera chehra jo dekhu
Jaise pallu mein chhupi dulhan agayi
Kehte hain log khooni hain tere bhai
Par tehzeeb duniya ko tu sikha gayi

Dhoond raha tha patharo mein jise
Ibadat wo insaan mein nazar agayi
Dekha ek baar bas nafrat na karke
Toh tu mohabbat karna sikha gayi

Saturday, August 2, 2014

ARMAAN

Armaan kuch soye soye se
Jaage hain dil mein kahin
Bohot chal liya pakadke ungli
Zara gir ke chalna dekhu to sahi

Na disha ki parvah na raste ki fikar
Jo ho manzil ka suroor
Na berukhi mein jalna na zamaane ka dar
Zara jeene ka nashe mein duboon toh sahi

Armaan kuch jaage jaage se
Chalne banne manzil meri
Jo chhod ke ungli chalne laga
Toh dhokha pairo ne kabhi diya nahi

Friday, June 6, 2014

NARAZGI

Hai subah ko jagati aankhein meri
Chhidak kar pani jinme wo raat bhar doobi rahi
Socha aaj sunega kahani koi behte ashkon ki
Toh baarish ki saazish ho gayi

Jo le gaye pair sagar kinare
Doob ke dekhu zara aankho ki tarah
Jo tamanna na rahi ab jine ki
Toh maut bewafa naraz ho gayi

Saturday, May 24, 2014

KHAYAL

Hai sukun ata ye dekhkar
Ke hai duniya mein achhai abhi
Jo dekhe koi muskurate tumhe
Kaise kare gunaah kabhi

Tum chaho na chaho batiyana mujhsey
Dil ki baaton ko rokogi kaise
Kabhi dekh na lena meri ore kabhi
Dil ki chori ko rokogi kaise

Chahe karlo jitni nafrat mujhsey
Hai sona ubharta jalke, pighalke
Chahe ho mohabbat ya nafrat aye jaan
Aunga main hi khayalo se nikal ke

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

A HEART'S TALE

Severed and tattered, falling to bits
Teary red eyes, heart's been slit
As I gather the pieces of me off the ground
Into darkness I see a candle is lit

Afraid of deception, my everlasting friend
I caress the distance and pretend to pretend
That I'm joyous with how life has turned out to be
Wishing inside for the distance to end

O what beauty God has showered
Your glow has the desert flowered
The elixir of your smile has my heart beating
As your charm has it devoured

With hope and smile on my face
Slaved by your mesmerising grace
I follow my heart and admire your beauty
I fall in love, your dreams I crave

Saturday, May 17, 2014

SALAAHIYAT

Hosh se badi sazaa kya hogi
Moondi ankhon se jo dekhe
Jannat wo dekhne walon ko kahan hogi
Teri hasi mein jo chain-e-madhosh hai aye jaan
Wo samajhdaro ko dua-e-khuda mein kahan razaa hogi

Teri nigahon ki roshni se zada
Rangsazi syahi kya hogi
Hai meherbani teri muskaan ki aye jaan
Warna salaahiyat qous-o-qazah ki
Baarish mein kahan hogi

Chauksi se zada bayzaar zindagi kya hogi
Ruk ruk ke, tham tham ke
Hasne se zada udasi kya hogi
Jab ki hai mohabbat tujhsey aye bakshish-e-khuda
Toh dua kubul bhala allah se kya hogi

Thursday, April 3, 2014

MUSKAAN

Ek baar jo dekha aine ko
Thi tasveer koi anjani si
Tha kaun wo khada parchhayi bana
Kahani koi sunani thi

Kaha muskurate hue usne
Kyu jaan ke anjaan ho tum
Ke aansu aur hasi, dono hi do pal ke hain
Toh chehre se muskaan kyu gum

Raat bina na din hai
Na din bina hai raat
Dono me hi khush rehna
Yahi hai sachi baat

Andhiyare mein mai kaise hasu
Puchha maine us parchhayi se
Hai behta lahu pal pal mein yahan
Bachu kaise ache bure ki ladayi se

Burai ka keher jo badh jaye
Toh achhai ubharne lagti hai
Jo achhai kabhi zada ho
Toh burai janam le leti hai

Khushi tumhari hai tumhare paas
Na kisi aur vastu na insaan mein
Zara ichha to karo muskurane ki
Hasi ka bhandaar hai is jahaan mein

Jo tum haso to duniya hase
Jo ashko mein raho to jeevan ruke
Badnaseeb hain wo jo dhunde wajah
Naseeb wale toh bewajah hase

Muskura diya jo dekha aine ko
Thi tasveer jaani pehchaani si
Tha mai hi khada parchhayi bana
Sunli kahani jo sunani thi

Thursday, February 20, 2014

ONCE UPON A TIME IN IBS

I stood outside the main gate, waiting for the bus to Mehdipatnam, for one last time. Witnessing the usual approaches of cab and auto-rickshaw drivers on seeing one with some luggage, I went back in time a little to refresh my memories about the place. About what happened once upon a time in IBS.

Having being living in hostels almost my whole life, I wasn't scared about being away from home, on the contrary, I preferred it. What scared me a little was the course of MBA. Presentations, projects (a lot of them), CP, NCP and I had even heard about ACP and DCP. Being an engineer my Kryptonite was public speaking and more embarrassingly, I was one of those for whom speaking at all, to anybody, was a task in itself.
Well, there was nothing I could do about it. Having not secured a good enough job, MBA was the option left and thus here I was in E-405, getting dressed up in formals to leave for class. My first task of the day was to locate Mess-2. Pulled up my socks and on my way I went. Asking any human like figure I could find, I crossed H block, took the turns on maal road (didn't know it was called that then, but could justify the name later) and reached the mess. Now, after living in Tamilnadu for 4 years, if you're offered idli, AGAIN, for breakfast, you must think your life sucks. Mine did too, and I left for class directly hoping to get better lunch. Once again, through some aid, I reached acads block and found my class, LT-F. The letters 'LT' made me think I was in some Harvard or Oxford where there would be all serious and extremely studious students sitting alongside me and a teacher with a gazillion degrees who would like to call himself an academician more than a simple teacher, would enter and begin teaching right away. C'mon, I loved introductions class where no would teach or study and you get to know the names of girls/guys you would like to be...err..friends...yes friends with. But to my good surprise, a few students sitting in the class didn't seem how I had thought. They looked like normal Indian kids waiting for a teacher to come start teaching the daily math and science. I found an empty seat, away from everyone, and occupied it. I found they were all chatting but not sitting together, why? Wait, does the number 65 signify something? Is it my seat number? Perhaps, because there are numbers written in front of the tables. So, I occupied the seat number 65. To my left sat a chubby girl. But we didn't talk. In fact I didn't talk to anybody in the class much.

The classes started and I realised it was no Harvard. It was a normal college trying to imitate Harvard and well, not being able to. But it had its ups too. The projects in all the subjects gave me amazing friends, the chubby girl with whom I had had a real conversation only because an exercise in PEL made us do so and through that exercise we got to know a lot about each other. Destiny's way of bringing people together. And today she's one of the most important friends in my life but she's not so chubby anymore. The people sitting around me then, became my best friends and I think they always will be through the ups and downs we've had and may have. Met people through all the classes, we all had something in common. We either liked cursing the teacher and/or the subject or would just like each other. The way we wished to be in the same class at the end of first semester and we actually ended up together (From section B to M), with a few exceptions ofcourse. Then started the frenzy over seat numbers. I had got 9 after being in 65 the previous semester. God, I invented some new cuss words over that. I never failed to blame my seat number for getting bad grades. And eventually, I learnt to live with them, so much that all I wanted in all the tests was a C and getting a B called for a celebration.
Then the first year ended with the beginning of the internship. The era of mini placements where some of us were pushed into some internships forcefully by 'u-know-who'. I guess all of us escaped that too? How we missed the college during the middle of our internship and then missed the internship during the middle of college. The talks about presentations, guide visits, then the grading system they followed would always be remembered. The grading criteria was epic!

As the second year began, so began our specializations and the big daddy, PLACEMENTS. MBA became like another year in engineering where we bunked classes at will, seldom thought about CP and NCP. DCP and ACP were losing their sheen and so was our attendance. Having more than 85% attendance became a new taboo. Projects were done solely because we didn't want an F. Our way of preparing for presentation had taken a complete u-turn. Remember how we used to meet a week in advance and even spend a few days rehearsing the presentation? Atleast I did. And now, all I needed was an hour to collect the data I had to present. I would have no idea what others would be saying, and in one instance I didn't know who the other presenters were. That's how IBS transformed me. I learnt public speaking. I learnt that fear is just a state of mind and if you present the same project for 2 semesters in various subjects, with the confidence of Arnab Goswami, you're well on your way to becoming a smart manager. But more than academics, extra-curricular activities played an important part. Nobody knew who I was untill I joined Xpressionz as a script writer. Well, my script writing didn't do any wonders, but being a member of Xpressionz I was offered a role in Suits, the biggest hit of IBS till date. I played Minor Moon and that's what I was called henceforth by all. Facing Major Chand became a problem though! Biggest thanks to the whole team for that.

Gradually, everything passed, I got placed, many of my friends got placed, we partied and realised our time was coming to an end. Our actions and inactions were now driven by that fact. Many acquaintances became friends, some friends became acquaintances but that's how life has always been and will be. We need to go along with everything and that's what we did in the last few days in IBS, Hyderabad. 17th Feb was the last day I visited the city, the usual places. And as I was coming back, I realised, this is the last time I'm going back to IBS from the city, the last time, I'm ENTERING the campus, the last time the security guard's gonna frisk me and the last time I can be inside and be a student for one more day, just one more.

On the last day, 18th Feb, I had to leave by 6.30. So I began my tour of the whole campus. But this time it was not for all the beautiful girls I could check out, but capture the memories of the place for one last time. To check out what I had not untill now or even if I had, I had not really appreciated it. The hostel buildings with ancient lifts, the area in front of ABCD block, G block area, clinic area and the area beyond that. The last stretch of road at the end of the campus joining the acads block. The reading room and the library - a first year's second home in IBS. I have a lot of memories there. Nothing would be forgotten, the dhabas, Narender, peacock, loventilla, nothing at all. Not even Shankarpally, our Hyderabad city when we felt lazy and financially weak or needed a short quick break.

I stood outside the main gate, waiting for the bus to Mehdipatnam, for one last time. I knew I had to move on to give meaning to my time spent in IBS. I had to move on to show the world why I missed IBS and no matter how it is, it teaches you how to live and that life is one in a million. But still, before the bus could arrive I turned and looked back at the campus. There was a different world inside and I wasn't a part of it anymore. I kept capturing every detail I could untill a little drop of tear fell below my eye and a big lump chocked my throat.

I got the ticket to Mehdipatnam for one last time.

Saturday, January 18, 2014

JEEVAN

badhte badhte badh to gaya
pakadke ungli chal to gaya
manzil ka pata lekin na tha
bas raah pakdi aur kho sa gaya
bachpan mein pyar kiya to tha
par jana nahi hota hai kya
khilaune, khel fir dosti yaari
pyar ke shikhar pe maap baap aur behen pyari
bhatka hua sa dil tha mera
tumse mila to sambhal to gaya

koi khata ho to maaf kar dena
na kar sako to barbaad kar dena
tumhari muskaan ki kimat tum jaanti nahi
loot loot ke use mai lut sa gaya
naino se barasti har boond tumhare
tezaab si lagti dil pe hamare
toh zakham na dena isko kabhi
tumhe hasta dekh ye dhadak jo gaya

shaitaniya kabhi kam na hongi
aakhir hoti hain apne ke aage
tum rootth jao chahe jitna
manake tumko mai tumpe mar sa gaya
ab vada hai tumse mera
ke zindagi meri ab hamari hai
saansien rahein na rahein, pyar karunga
tumhe paake hi to mai jee sa gaya